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mekachu04Crowley would never call himself brave - he believes himself, through and through to be a coward. a survivor. but a coward.
it breaks Aziraphale's heart each time. he may be a demon - he may be evil, but he's never malicious. his evil is chaos and dysfunction and glee as the careful plans of humans dissolves around them. sometimes, the angel wonders if this is a perversion of his star-maker days. of spinning chaos into order, Crowley now plucks at the weaving until the unravel. he doesn't hate humans the way his dark lord does - no he finds them endlessly fascinating, and finds their ability to hurt each other far more effectively than hell's own actions.
but Aziraphale sees the way he defends the humans too - confusing his own side to stay more hands off, give humans suggestions, instead of lashing out at the directly. see the way he undermines hells goals to give the humans longer lifespans, more chances to better their lives, more hope. he doesn't spin it that way at all - very clever with his words, the serpent of edan.
Aziraphale sees his bravery in how Crowley meets the humans on their level; gets in o the mud and grime, slips into their lives and cultures seamlessly. he surrounds himself with the fine things, yes, but he puts himself out there to be hurt by the humans, both when they covet his things, and more often, when they care for him in return, and eventually, the will all be lost to him. he will love them, every step of the way hoping desperately that once they pass this mortal coil he will never see them again. he know heaven wont accept them all, but to see them in hell breaks him more than any one, even Aziraphale, will every truly understand.
Aziraphale also knows that their very friendship is an act of bravery on Crowley's behalf.
it breaks Aziraphale's heart each time. he may be a demon - he may be evil, but he's never malicious. his evil is chaos and dysfunction and glee as the careful plans of humans dissolves around them. sometimes, the angel wonders if this is a perversion of his star-maker days. of spinning chaos into order, Crowley now plucks at the weaving until the unravel. he doesn't hate humans the way his dark lord does - no he finds them endlessly fascinating, and finds their ability to hurt each other far more effectively than hell's own actions.
but Aziraphale sees the way he defends the humans too - confusing his own side to stay more hands off, give humans suggestions, instead of lashing out at the directly. see the way he undermines hells goals to give the humans longer lifespans, more chances to better their lives, more hope. he doesn't spin it that way at all - very clever with his words, the serpent of edan.
Aziraphale sees his bravery in how Crowley meets the humans on their level; gets in o the mud and grime, slips into their lives and cultures seamlessly. he surrounds himself with the fine things, yes, but he puts himself out there to be hurt by the humans, both when they covet his things, and more often, when they care for him in return, and eventually, the will all be lost to him. he will love them, every step of the way hoping desperately that once they pass this mortal coil he will never see them again. he know heaven wont accept them all, but to see them in hell breaks him more than any one, even Aziraphale, will every truly understand.
Aziraphale also knows that their very friendship is an act of bravery on Crowley's behalf.
