2025.09.04 - ENVELOPE

[mekachu04]

Doing Theme Set Alpha by 1character. The prompt was "Envelope''

He finds himself writing Kidd letters on long nights like these, ones he will burn come morning; he pens to paper all the excuses on why he left, trying to ease his own heartache that this was better for his young friend - to be as far away from Killer's growing affection as he could get before Killer corrupted him too.

Expanding on those last few words. Warning for age gap discussions? Its some ideas that i also explore in last year's KiKi'tober.

I headcannon the reason Kidd and Killer become rival gang leaders was when Kidd was 14 or 15, Killer started to get uncomfortable with how close they'd become. He would be an adult by all rights by this point and Kidd would likely start to become more interested in sex and relationships by this age, and more involuntarily bodily reactions (morning wood, ect) are gettign harder to ignore especially if they are in housing situations where they might be sharing a bed still.

Instead of discussing any of this though, Killer starts to distance himself from Kidd, to the point they no longer associate anymore. Kidd doesn't really understand why, and is understandably pretty hurt and angry. They start fighting when they do cross paths, just furthering that divide between them.

Its only Victoria's murder that has them teaming back up at all. They eventually will have a fight over Killer essentially abandoning Kidd to which feelings will get admitted to and they start to repair thier friendship. And maybe eventually more. But that will take time.

So the corruption comment is partly Killer feeling like a predator for how much he clearly loves Kidd - but with both of them starting to get older that love is starting to lead to newer feelings. I do not think Killer is interested in sex with Kidd at this point, but its more the uncomfortable realization he's not entirely sure he'd turn Kidd down if it was something Kidd wanted.

He's never been good at telling Kidd no.

He's trying so hard to do right by Kidd here, even if it leads to Kidd hating him.

This is a Killer that has a lot of self identity issues, a Killer that doesn't particularly like himself already. He believes even entertaining these thoughts that Kidd is getting old enough to be a sexual person makes Killer in turn a monster.

This is a Killer who thinks he is a bad person and he will do whatever it takes to make sure he doesn't take advantage of Kidd. Even if it means abandoning his teenage friend woth little warning.